"Once I find an excuse that sounds right, there’s no stopping me. Unless I keep a record, my memory will be altered as to which of my reasons were actually excuses. Records are ruthless. I’ve written over and over in my diary that I thought I was only going to drink one glass of liquor, but once I did, I couldn’t stop. In keeping and reviewing records, the disadvantages finally sink in. It was an impossible dream for me to drink just one glass."